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Mexican food. I eat it the most, I think. Well, that or Chinese. Honestly though, Mexican food is the one we eat most around here and the one I like most because I always want it. haha. So, if it came down to Mexican or Chinese, I'd go with Mexican food. Definitely.

The past few nights before bed I have managed to ask myself, What does someone impacting my life in a positive way mean? Was it a friend? A random stranger that could've smiled at me during a bad day? What does that mean to me? I've come to the conclusion that it's both. And, as I thought deeper about the close people who have impacted my life in such ways, I realize that I never give the appropriate amount of time to thank them. I never sit down and say it, or maybe I say it so sparsely that it seems nonexistent.

Grace's mom is most likely going to be passing tomorrow. In fact, I'm pretty sure because the doctors have basically told my best friend that her mom is brain dead after the heart attack she had a few days ago. It hurts so bad, because not only is this one of my best friends mothers. But, her mother was literally like a second mom to me. She was such an exceptional woman, an outstanding person. Somebody who I really admire and strive to be more like in my own life. Somebody who had a lot of hope when others may not have.

As I said in a previous post.. I have seen this woman go from being so depressed and not leaving the house, to coming downstairs and socializing with my mother after her husband had passed. I have seen the courage and the strength that this woman had to keep pressing forward for her daughters after she found out she had a tumor. I have seen this woman give everything to anybody who needed it, when she herself spoke little English, had no job of her own, and had very little to her own name (only what she had gotten from her husband's social security in her daughter's names.)

She was such a giving woman, a selfless person. She didn't give herself enough credit, I don't think. And, I sure as hell know that she was a grade higher than an A for a mother. She would do everything to make her girls happy, and even took care of their needs before her own almost all of the time. She didn't give up, even when she felt like it. And, through all this she still held faith in God, and the things she believed so deeply to be true to her heart. She never showed sadness, she didn't show pain (until it was inevitable), and above all, she didn't show any signs of loss. Not after I saw her turn into such a strong woman.

She was remarkable to say the least. Roselia Villicana will be forever marked in my heart. I'll never forget her, her love, and her unwavering faith and spirit. I won't forget how happy she used to be at simple things such as my family going over for dinner, or how radiant she seemed to beam when she would ask me how I was. I won't forget how hard she tried to understand, even if she knew very little English. She didn't have to show her love with words of my first language, because she showed it with her heart and her actions.

One strong memory I will always have, is me being at Grace's house bawling while Grace was away. And, her mother ever so kindly as she was, sat with me on the couch and held me while she told me in both English and Spanish, that everything would be okay. That she didn't want me to cry. She treated me just like I was a part of her family, and that's how I will always remember her. She was a part of my family, a part of my life, and a large part of my heart. And to some degree, I feel like I have not gotten enough time with her. Though I have spent years and endless days and nights in her home, it doesn't feel enough. But, her spirit and love will carry on in my heart and my life.

Her daughters are amazing. Grace is just like her mother, so strong willed and courageous. I love her so much, and I admire her strength. I admire her keeping herself stronger for her sister, and for herself. I admire her doing everything she could for her mother, despite having harder times in school or things like that. I admire her for the risks she took by going to California when she needed to. I admire her faith, and the way she keeps her roots strong. She nearly lost her education because the school sucked and they were jerks, but this girl put everything aside and truly loved her mother. She has a heart of gold, and only someone very special should ever date my Gracie.

The same goes for Judy. Though she may be a little wild, she really is a tough girl herself. She has been through a lot so young (just as Grace), and she still is courageous enough to press on. She goes for her dreams, even when everything is giving her a slow down or a stop. She embraces herself, even when people don't always like her. She too, has a heart of gold and a strong willed side. And, I know together that my girl Judy will be alright with her sister.

Another person who has touched my life so much is Brittany. She is surrounded daily by people who don't always like how different she is, or how different her views are. But, she presses forward and is NEARLY done with school! (I am so proud of you!) Though her parents don't like to believe in what she feels or believes, she continues to stay herself and keep her beliefs and views above her parents. She has gone through a lot herself within her family life, and I admire all her strength, too.

And above all this, these three girls have remained my friends, my family, my love. They have remained so dear to my life, so close to me, that when bad things happen to them I feel like they are happening to me. I feel crushed, afraid, alone, worried sick off my butt, and heart broken when I cannot be there for them. I feel like a part of me is lost when they are lost, a part of me is destroyed when they are crushed, and above all, I feel the way they need me when they need me. It's a type of love of the purest, something that I cherish to the fullest.

Holly, her mother and Jeffery have also made impacts on my life. And, their mother is another woman who I really admire and look up to. Despite all the things they have been through, they never show loss. They all press on, they all move forward and continue to strive for happiness and love. This is something I want to do, something I really look up to them for. I see it in them, and I believe I can do it too. I see it in them, and I feel stronger myself.

This post is for Rose. This post is for Grace. This is for Judy. This is also for Brittany, and my family and other close friends who have been mentioned or have marked my life in such tremendous ways. I may not say it all the time, but I do love you.

This post is also for the casual friends I know, for the online chatters, for those small acquaintances, and for the strangers who impact my life by helping me crack a smile when it hurts. Those people impact you too, and you never know how much. So, to all you known AND unknown people who have impacted my life in a positive way, thank you. Thank you for leaving some kind of mark on my life, whether it had been an everlasting mark that I will never forget, or a small mark that had cheered up my day.

my friend, we have been through so much, and you have been my Godsend, with your sure and steady love. My friend, you know I will be there, if you ever need... 'cause you've always been a friend... to me.

Some people become adults at younger ages, while others never grow up. I think that it varies on what a person has been through in life, and how they see things. Some people can be adult-like and be as little as 10. (I should know, haha) and some can be 48 and still act like a high school child. (Again, I should know.) It just really depends on what a person has as a mind process and how they react/behave towards things. Well, in my opinion that is. For example; a thirteen-year-old may not care about material possesions and worry more about their future or path in life. Whereas, an "adult" who is, say mid-thirties, can be completely devoured by the things they own and the approval of others.

To me, being an adult boils down to responsibility and the way you act or behave for your age. Everybody can be childish, but, when it comes down to important things? Not everyone can act the proper way or care about them. I guess that runs more into the term selfishness. But, to me, an adult should not be selfish, nor should they act like a high school student and pretend they're so much more worth someone else because of the things they own or the car they drive. Unfortunately, in my eyes, there are more children in the world than true adults. Or well, that I've seen out here anyway.

Adults should be able to accept their consequences and stand their ground. They should be able to also look at things in a deeper perspective than a cell phone or a wad of cash. I guess the other term for this is shallow. But, again, I don't think real "adults" should be shallow. Which is why I stick with my word when I say, there are definitely more children around today than true adults. I am really sick of seeing women in their 40's act like they are better than everyone else - the same thing goes for men. And, I'm sick of people acting like they can throw away a problem with money or superficial 'love' and shower them with gifts.

Please. Does gifts really cure cancer? No. Does a gift or a wad of cash cure someone's pain over the loss of a loved one? No. So, stop throwing it around like it's so much better than a real deep hearted love that money can't buy. When people lose someone else or have a problem arise in life, they want to be comforted with a shoulder to lean on. Not some stupid wad of money that you just toss around like a jerk.

Adults should be more respective towards others, as well as to themselves. Dressing like a sleaze doesn't make you any more of an adult, either. Cursing multiple times doesn't make you an adult either; especially around children. True adults would respect a child's presence and save the cursing for a later time. Also, they wouldn't blast rap music about giving blow jobs in front of a kid, either. Think about the future you're setting them up for before you act like a moron, 'kay?

That's my two cents.. more like five cents..

I would give some of it away for Autism research purposes. Then, I'd give my mom and family better things for their lives. And, with the remainder of it, I'd take care of myself. Probably move out and what not. Maybe buy me one of my favorite cars like a Mustang or the Slug bug. ;)

To Sophia Bush's house.

Okay, really.. I want to go to England. A lot. I want to go to Germany, too. I want to go to Canada.. I have quite a few online friends up there and in England too. So, it'd be wicked awesome to go those two places and just hang out. Did I mention everyone I know from both places is gay? Ahaha, so fun. I can just imagine myself in England hanging with Alex and talking about Pokemon and then talking about like shoes or something.

And of course, Canada would be awesome to see other Alex and gush over Ayumi Hamasaki. Not to mention the awesome Sophie who seems really rad. Totally would love to see her too.

I also wouldn't mind going to Australia. What can I say? I'm a sucker for the countries with accents. Oh, and I wouldn't mind going to Mexico because I live so close to it.. buuuuut, I'd rather not because the crime. lol BUT THE CANDY IS SO GOOD!

Yeah, I have a lot of places I'd like to go, actually. Japan, too. <333 Totally Japan.

Wasn't ever a huge fan of it. But, I didn't hate it either. It's just kind of there... I'm the type of person who would go out and do things for my current love interest. But, in a way I still think it's overrated. When I'm single? It doesn't really bother me that couples are like all over the place swooning. But, I know it drives some people nuts. I do wish I had a valentine though. Maybe next year..

If I did have someone to be Valentine's with this year, I'd probably make a dinner. Keep things simple. Maybe go to a movie. I think it's ridic when people do extravagant things when you can just do them on a daily basis or an anniversary that is huge instead. I like the thought of making things for your love, too. It's really cute because there's more thought in it than buying something like chocolate or flowers. I like things with more thought behind them, it shows that the person is really interested and really cares.

In junior high, I hated Valentine's day. 7th Grade? I got asked to the dance by some football kid every girl liked in school and I said no. Pfft. And then all the girls were like "OH MY GOD, WHY" but he was stupid. In 8th grade, I got asked out by this gothic kid. Which I said no. Then I felt sort of bad because he moved lmao and appearantly all his friends said he liked me all year long in history. But, by then I already knew I liked girls and I kind of liked the girl I hated. You know? The one you love to hate? yeah, didn't figure that out until high school though and so wouldn't have asked her out.. lol

Oh, it does remind me of the movie Valentine. With David Boreanaz in it. Veryyyy good film.

I think when I was climbing the dresser and fell. I almost broke my arm lol I was like.. 3 going on four. But, I also remember riding this little bike thingy that was pink and I know i was younger than 3 maybe..

I also remember being freaked out by this huge ant hill and screaming at my mom and I know I was little then. I just don't know which of these came first. ahahaha. I also remember scribbling on the wall and climbing into my sisters crib, climbing out and blaming her... but at the time she was still an infant and my mom was mad at me..

I also remember my mom and step dad fighting and him throwing chairs so I ran into the closet and locked it from the inside. lol we didn't live in the best area, so sometimes our family would go in the closet and chain the lock. Cause sometimes there'd be like gun shots and crap and drunk people sleeping on the porch my mom says. lmfao

I remember wearing the stupid blue sling and putting bugs bunny bandaids on my arm.. lol.

AND BEBO! I got my bear bebo that night my step dad did that. I still have him. I LOVE BEBO! But, now he has holes and stuff.

My mom says that when I was almost three, somehow I climbed out of the play pen and pushed it to the kitchen counter to climb onto it and eat the chocolate cake. lmfaoooo and that I was sharing it with my cousin nathan who was barely one. But, I don't remember that. I guess I used to climb a lot, because I also remember how I found out about Power Rangers was from me climbing onto the dresser and flipping on the TV. This question amused me..

I can remember things about my sisters being babies still, even Michelle. Because she was stupid and always threw poop out of her crib and I would scream at her. And then when I grew out of the Belle shoes, she wore them briefly and I hated her... *grumbles*

OH YEAH! And when I was two, my mom bought me one of those games where you put the pieces in and after time ticks they pop out at you and I screamed crying. I hated that toy.. it scared me.

She also tells me that when I was a bit older than one, I wanted these Minnie Mouse sandles and she couldn't afford them so I put them in the cart anyway and I stole them from the store. So my mom went back in the store and the manager let me keep them since my mom was honest. AHAHAHA

I think also when I was 3, that was the year I saw Beauty and the Beast. I had these Belle strappy shoes that I'd wear to day care everyday. Well, at least until they were torn up. And then I cried. I also had a Belle towel and a Belle cup. (I still have the cup.. aahah)

Sometimes. It only really happens if I am craving something from that particular place and want to go while everyone is at school or my mom at work.. lol.

Usually, we go out as a family or I take a friend.

Um. Chicken. lol Or even strawberry cheesecake! OH and definitely reese's peanut butter cups.. and I can't forget milkshakes from McDonalds. Yeah.. okay so this kind means food doesn't really make me feel that better since I'm listing a lot of shit. Pfft, whateverrrr. I think that milkshakes or ice cream is probably the biggest. I never really thought of things that way when I'm eating though.. huh.

Hmm.. didn't do this one sooner.

But, my resolutions for this year are to love myself more often. I'm always one to kick myself and pull myself down before anyone else does. So, that's one of them. The other one is to stay determined with the things I want to do this year. Finish my GED, save up my money, get a second job.. I tend to be determined for a short while before I give up. So, this year I made a resolution of focusing and keep going. :)

the other one is a little too personal. But, I got three for this year.

No, of course it isn't. Why should it be? People should be responsible for their own lives and marriages. I don't think it should matter if colored people marry white people.. or if gay people marry each other.. and of course if straight people marry each other. If the judgemental people like to be judgemental about it, then they should let them. But, the government shouldn't do anything about it.. that takes away freedom. Lame.

Artistic // I tend to be artistic in ways of music, drawing, graphic arts, writing..
Blunt // At times I can be very blunt about things.
Caring // A lot of people use this, but really.. I care about everyone I know. Sometimes too much.
Determined // When I want to be, I can be very determined.
Enthralled // I get easily excited about things I like.
Friendly // Basically, I give everyone a chance. and I get along easy with others.
Grounded // Sometimes I can think high in the clouds, but I'm pretty down to earth, I'd like to think.
Humourus // Making people laugh is something I love to do.
Impatient // At times, I can be verrrry impatient.
Jesture // While talking, I tend to make jestures with my hands or even facial expressions.
Kind // I always show my heart and tend to be compassionate towards everyone.. sometimes that's not always a good thing.
Loving // I show the people I care about a lot of affection and love.
Mischevious // I can be a rebel at times, too. :P
Nervous // I get anxiety quite often.
Open Minded // Almost anybody is cool with me. I try not to shut people out because I myself, have been shut out plenty times.
Pessimistic // A lot of the times, I can be this way.
Quiet // In school, I'm always considered one of the quiet ones.
Real // I tend to be myself as much as possible. I hate fake people.
Selfless // Usually, I'll take care of someone elses problems before my own.
Talkative // I can be very very talkative when I want to be.
Understanding // I almost always will understand someone elses point of view.
Video games // I play these, A LOT!
Willing // I'm always willing to do things for others.
eXclaim // When I'm happy I usually love to be vibrant while I speak.
Young // I still feel like I'm 15 half the time.
Zen // I can also be calm when I'm in the right state of mind. :)

I have the same birthdate as the Veronicas. Which is pretty cool, I like that. :)

Total myth. But, I think that the werewolf thing would be very scary should it have been true.. I wouldn't find a person who was one attractive either.. I mean, hairy body? No thanks. But, it is amazing how the Buffy and Angel series managed to pull off making werewolf people really normal and cool. (Oz.) Definitely loved Oz on that show. Now that I think about it.. I miss that show..

Then again they also made vampires pulled off really awesomely. So, in the Buffyverse, nothing comes off hideous and ugly much.

Ocean. I live in Arizona where it's only mountains and rocks and people go hiking. Fucken boring. I much prefer the ocean... even if there's hurricanes and such. It's much nicer to look at to me.

Buffy.. :( Angel.. :( Oh, I miss them so much. Not to mention Friends, and Tru Calling.. *sigh* Charmed was also one of my favorites.. Lucky for DVDs but I wish those shows would've last longer.. Especially Angel. But I think Buffy and Angel are the ones I miss most.. The L Word will be joining them soon. :( And South of Nowhere.. *siiiigh* Now I feel nostalgic and wanna whip out my Angel discs. Or even Buffy but season 2 is currently being borrowed.. *FROWN*

Tru Calling didn't even get a proper chance! GRR!

Six Feet Under is pretty awesome. I've seen it a few times.. My neighbor let us borrow her DVD sets and it was amaaaazing!

On the Japanese show list.. I miss MARS. Amaaazing drama series!

I love way too many episodes to name them.. maybe someday I'll compile a list of my favorite episodes from my favorite shows... when I'm bored anyway.

Oh and VERONICA MARS!!!!!

I hated Soccer most. Because, I'm so terrible at it and well.. everyone passed the ball on purpose to me which always made us lose. Then just get mad at me.. jerks. I loved Basketball best, and tennis. Badminton wasn't too bad either.. I was pretty good at those. Oh, and I wasn't too shabby at volleyball either. But Soccer was shit and so was football. (American football.) Even though we only did flag football... I hated it.

I liked weight lifting as well, and could bench and leg press the most out of my class. I also could do 60+ sit ups and crunches at one point as well as 40+ push ups.. Most out of my class too. See, the girls liked to be lazy and girly but I was a tomboy sooo working out and doing that sort of stuff didn't bother me.

Oh, I also hated swimming class. Because dressing out infront of everyone? Not cool... I really hated it. Probably more than soccer. Luckily, in 8th grade, my teacher wasn't allowed to do swimming so we didn't. :D But, 7th sucked. I also didn't like long running sessions.. my asthma would catch up with me during the mile runs and I would always come in last or close to last. My 7th grade teacher was a real idiot about it.. but my 8th grade one understood and let me sit out sometimes.

I know this isn't a P.E. sport, but I loved to do rollerbladding. I miss it so much... I used to do it daily.. it was like the biggest way I got around back then. I'm way too out of shape now to even rollerblade around the block without losing my breath. I hate medication making me gain weight.. -.-

Name: Straight Killa Gatina (Straight Killa was my name off a quiz of prison name and Gatina because well.. I'm M. Gatina..)

Finishing Move: The Cat Scratch because Gatina means cat.